It's odd

the way things go sometimes. I don't even mean anything in particular. Your feelings will roller-coaster up and down and your tone of thought will shift from light to heavy and it's just all very strange. Sometimes I come down very hard on myself and internally panic that I'm becoming exclusive, annoying, luke-warm, a burden, etc., and other times I can feel so complete, loved, happy, filled, and content. Like I said, it's very odd indeed. Sometimes I feel like I'm not reaching out enough to some people, like I need to be a better friend to them but that other things are standing in the way. I feel like I haven't made an impact in their life, or let them know that I love them enough. But then I find out that they do know that I love them, and they don't think horribly of me, and my heart is made happy. Now I don't want you to think that I live my life for the purpose of having others think highly of me, because that's not the case. I do, however, want people to know that I love them, and that I'd do anything for them if they needed me to. I want them to know that they can come to me for help, advice, anything. I want to shower them with as much love as I can, as a reflection of the love that has been showered upon me--both by my lovely friends and my most holy Father. My greatest delight is to love and to be loved. I do not take for granted the love that He has blessed me with, and I only wish to share that love and compassion with the people around me. And even though sometimes I feel like I am not adequate at doing so, or I feel like I'm a burden to others, I want my friends to always know that I care about them. Always.

"Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love."

{Ephesians 4:2}

"Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God."

{1 John 4:7}

"Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends."

{John 15:13}

Goodnight my precious dears! I love you!