He was humble, and He loved everyone...

I feel utterly defeated; kind of like I failed to complete a task. I tried the best I could and I don't know if I accomplished anything. I hope I did, but I'm not sure. What else could I have done? What else can I do? I don't want to come across as egotistical, but I'm used to feeling like I at least made some sort of an impact; even if it's only a fraction. I want my friends to know that they are loved and cared for. I want them to know that there are others who are willing to listen to them and talk to them whenever they need someone. I want them to know that they need friends! If you were wondering what my biggest concern was in regards to college, that's it. I'm worried about my friends and their relationships; their well-being. More than anything in life, I want my friends to be happy; completely and unconditionally. I want to know that they are going to be looked after and loved the way that they are now by me. Maybe I can't be everything they need, but I put all of my heart and soul into trying. Are others willing to do the same? I honestly have no way of knowing, and that scares me. I want to always be here to protect my friends, to comfort them, to give them advice, or even just be able to physically sit and listen to them. What happens when I can't? When I'm two hours away, will they still be willing to come to me? Will I know enough about what's going on in their lives to help them? I want to help. I don't want to leave; not yet. I'm not ready. I'm not. Perhaps this all seems a bit childish to you, and maybe you're sitting there thinking, "Why the heck isn't this girl excited to move on with her life?" Well, the truth of the matter is that I feel like everything will change. I'm afraid of friendships diminishing, and trust along with it. I fear that I will be somewhat forgotten, and demoted somehow on the friendship scale. Maybe that sounds ridiculous, but it's how I honestly feel. It puts me on the verge of tears just thinking about leaving. I know that God is faithful and He will not do anything to harm me, but I'm finding it hard to place it all in His hands. I constantly try to do it all myself, because I want to. But I don't have all of the answers for this one, so there's only so much my attempts can accomplish. My loves, find compassion within one another. Love everyone and take initiative! Don't think that people don't care about you because you aren't "best friends." Sometimes it's the people you least expect that will show you the most love. I've learned that in my one year, five months, and eighteen days at WEAG. You all have taught me that. My prayer is that everyone will see you exactly the same way I do; as the beautiful, incredible individuals that you are. I really do Thank God every day for you all. He could not have blessed me with a better family.