Beloved and Broken.

Perhaps a broken heart can serve your spirit well.
If it weren't for our periods of brokeness,
our faith would never be tested.
And if we never hit troughs
in our relationship with God,
then would we ever realize our dependence?
I find it hard to abandon my struggles;
to leave them in the hands of God.
Why do I think myself to be indestructible?
When will I realize that I cannot do this alone?
My emotions, thoughts, and obstacles;
nothing is within my control.
I need to trust in that,
instead of merely understanding the concept.
This life is hard.
We will experience emotional breakdowns,
traumatic loss, relationship issues,
and personal, heart-shattering dilemas.
But how we cope can say a lot.
Do you tell someone?
Curl in a ball and cry in isolation?
That is when we need Him the most.
And, in time, we will break down, and
the trust barricade will permanently dissenigrate.
We will live in peace; serenity; utopia.
Well, the closest we can get on this Earth, anyway.....


Fact: Josh Huizenga just started a fight with me, and I am shaking with anger... Someone might need to hold me back the next time I see him. Seriously, that blow was low; even for him. If anyone wants to hear about it later just ask. I don't want to splurge about it on the internet.