Anonymous and Nightmares.

Can I just say that I am totally stoked for the youth production?! Because, well, I am :) Yeah, I know, most of you are probably like "Ugh! So stressful!" But I don't know, I'm just uber excited! Now, prepare for a totally random changing of topics; starting now! Okay, so for the past few nights I've been having the craziest, freakiest dreams ever, and I don't like them. I think watching Saw IV is the reason behind them, but the dreams just started a few nights ago and I saw the movie a week ago. Anyways, so it always starts out where I'm hanging out with people I know (I distinctly remember being with Lindsay Dunnavant in last night's dream.). And we'll just be having a normal conversation when, all of a sudden, I start seeing these scary, crimson, cryptic symbols and/or pictures all over the walls. And I know that they mean something awful, so I start screaming, but I'm the only one that sees any of it. So while I'm standing there is mass hysteria, my friends are trying to help me without knowing what on earth to do. And just as I start to maintain control of myself, the scene totally changes, and I find myself wandering in what looks like underground tunnels or caves. At this point in the dream, I'm aware that I am "playing" the sort of game that is done in the Saw movies. So, naturally, I end up watching people suffer and die. (I won't go into too much detail on that. I didn't think you'd appreciate it.) But I think the worst part is that, in my dream, I'm "winning" the game. Ugh! I get chills just re-imagining it. I hate waking up from these things. I feel awful inside, and hardly at ease. I just wish I could be certain that these dreams are a mere manifestation of a Hollywood-crafted film plot, but I don't know. Part of me wonders if there's some impure thought or mindset within me that lets itself loose within my subconscious while I sleep. It unnerves me a little, I'm not going to lie. So, I looked towards scripture to find some reassurance:

Psalm 91

1 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High

will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.

2 I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress,

my God, in whom I trust."

3 Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare

and from the deadly pestilence.

4 He will cover you with his feathers,

and under his wings you will find refuge;

his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.

5 You will not fear the terror of night,

nor the arrow that flies by day,

6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,

nor the plague that destroys at midday.

In reading the footnotes from my Bible, I confirmed that these verses are directing me to do the very thing that I have been struggling with: "dwelling" and "resting" with God. No matter how intense my fear may become, I need to entrust myself to His protection. I need to trust Him! I need to put ALL of my faith in Him! Clearly, I cannot overcome these wicked images on my own; whether day or night; awake or asleep.

Fact: I have AP Government homework due tomorrow that has yet to be started. To do it tonight or tomorrow morning... that is the question. I dislike the fact that my teachers assigned homework over spring break. They know that almost no one will turn it in tomorrow! Ugh, whatevskies.