Monday, September 17, 2012

Stephanie Marie and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Month...

Yes, I will admit that there's a bit of melodrama there. But, as many of you have noticed, I haven't posted in approximately a month's time. Sleep has prevailed over writing. Stress has trumped relaxation. And a giant to-do list has masked true priorities. A few people have asked me where I've been (in regards to the blogging world). Some have mentioned missing shared wisdom, others the ongoings of my day-to-day life, and others just my posting in general. For you all, I shall be completely honest....

I haven't felt very wise, and I have not felt that peace of mind that's needed to really reflect on the significance of life happenings. The constant upkeep with my September schedule and transitioning back into school has left me deprived of quiet time, and there's a serious barrier being built up in my heart with the relationship that matters most. Stress has consumed me to the point where I have broken down, basked in bitterness, and been rude to people I love. Despite the countless offers of assistance, I bore more burden than I should have      not willing to share the load for fear of dissatisfaction. And now that the insanity is coming to its conclusion, I'm left feeling slightly hollow. Everything that I let overrun my life for the past month has come and gone. Now what? Well, I have quite the shambles to pick up, and I know it. Because despite the excitement that has also come along with September, I was too caught up in anxiety to enjoy it. However, I will take a moment to highlight a few things, just so you all can be assured that I'm not on hermit-status.

  • My housemates are wonderful, and the transition into the Fishbowl has been a synch.
(First night completely reunited: middle school rap dance-sesh!)
  • My sisters and I had a wonderful time on our retreat; we are all a bunch of 5 year-olds.
(There were no handles on those see-saws!)
  • Recruitment is now finished! (Praise!) We have 15 potential candidates (or biddies, haha!). The Epsilon bid ceremony is next Sunday :) I could potentially be getting another Little. But I am appropriately not a first priority for that, and it's completely in God's hands!
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(Student Org Night trifold.)
  • Ovarian Cancer Awareness Month has kept my sorority busy as well, but we still make room for fun :)
(Video made for Cancer Dancer!)
  • My sisters and I have this newly-established fascination with turning each other into landsharks ;)
    • Profanity warning!
  • I got to skype with Sarah and Margaret (distant SAO sisters at UGA) last night! That made me so happy :) Truly, distance cannot defy friendship.


I do hope to get back on track with my posting habits. Just please bear with me as I get through this month. After all, I'm really only half way there.

I love you all! And if you're one of my RVA loves, I miss you more than I can express! Goodnight.

2 comments:

jenn said...

i'm SO glad you posted! i've missed your blog! p.s. can't wait to get updated on the new "biddies" haha love and miss you more the end <3

Claire Voyant said...

AH! I love that you keep up with Mu!!

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